Accidentally saw his little diary in his phone, I swear I never want to check on it. But yes, I saw it, and my heart really painful when I read every single words he wrote. Thats all he never tell me, I dont even know he has so much hard time along that period. Sorry for neglect your feelings, sorry for not being a 100% understanding girlfriend. Sorry, I am failed.

When we decided to come Singapore, I thought everything will goes smooth with the plans. But we were wrong, things never happen as we expected. His job that we thought 100% taken just dragged to an unknown period. Then, he were forced to take a job that never expected. I felt sorry for that, my tears drop every night when I saw how tired he was, how he force himself to work even he don't want to. I ever ask him to give up cause I swear I never want him to be like this. I blamed myself, I blame myself for making this stupid decision to come over here. He could get a better job at any where. But he choose to be with me.

Since he ever be with me, everything around us like not as smooth as we thought. We went through lots of hard time together, I am blessed that he still love me that much, he gave me everything he has, he gave me all his love. Thanks to god for giving me such a great man in my life. He always being so tough in front of me, I thought he were. But I am wrong, I should realized strong person might fall too. I should realized sometimes he might weak too. But I don't, until today only I knew. I am so terrible, really really terrible.

You always being so understanding, so warm, so sweet to me. Don't feel guilty for anything, you are better than what you think you are. I dont ask for more, I don't need to be rich, I don't need luxury things, all I need is your love and accompany. Life can be so wonderful when being with the one you love, simple yet happiness. I have it now, thats more than enough.

Few times failed in previous relationship, I never thought I could meet a guy like you. I never thought theres someone would love me that much, until I be with you. I cant describe how much I love you, it cant express by words, it prove by actions. Just to let you know, no one can replace you in my heart. I swear to god, I will love you til the end of my life. Thats my words.

我会用我一辈子去爱你，这是我对你的承诺。