this two songs is how I exactly feel right now 

爱得太逞强  无论多眷恋  也不祈求不勉强

不爱我的我不想  讲的洒脱却感伤

总是爱得太逞强  怎么你竟让我不能忘不能放 

痛  还想

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night, I miss the way we sleep

like there's no sunrise, like the taste of  your smile ,I miss the way we breath

but I never told you, what I should have said
no, I never told you, I just held it in
and now, I miss everything about you, cant believe that I still want you

after all the things we've been through, I miss everything about you, without you

before that, I've thought to talk with you, but no matter how many times I look at your name in my phone, I still dare not to press the call button

cause I knew I shouldnt do that, even I miss you

you're not mine, I cant do whatever I want without care about other's feelings especially the one who beside you

last night I received your call and I really think this will be the last called we had

when I heard you, I just realized how much I miss your voice. 

you gonna leave here soon, move to another place, study abroad maybe ? feel that gonna lose something important in my life. this was how I feel at the moment

thanks for share all those things that you never tell me before. but its too late to told me now. 

how I wish you can tell me all this when the day I decided to leave, but you dint

I should forget you and you too. we shouldnt keep like this cause we not belongs to each other 

no matter how we feel, we will not get back to last time anymore. this is truth. we should move on

or maybe the one should move on is me. im trying hard now, I know the day is coming soon =D